| The Dark Side |
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There is also another side to me besides the scientific one...(eerie music in the background) : the music side!
I completed a 6-year elementary music education with major in violin...but that was long time ago. Besides that I play tenor saxophone and the guitar but since I'm self-taught don't expect much. Although...none of the neighbors ever complained so I can't be that bad (I don't count my room mates cause they always complained) :). So if you know a band that needs a part-time sax/guitar/violin-player/singer to play just for fun, let me know (PS: I don't do gigs in front of the audience....I suffer from a Big Crunch- syndrome on the stage) :) . Here are few of my songs recorded during rehersals with my former band John's Cage.
| The Soft Side |
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Miroslav (Mika) Antic is one of my most favorite poets of our time. Since we also shared the same hometown I feel it as my duty to share a piece of his work with you. What follows is one of his poems that is most dear to me. Be ware that it was originally written in Serbian and this is just my own English of it so a bit of original magic might have been lost in the translation.
Magical Song by Miroslav Antic
1.
I often see you like that.
Though, like through some
distant silver haze,
I still see you beautifully.
Boots made of seven light miles
on your legs.
Holding the lamp,
after Aladdin,
you infold inside it the contours of eternal time
instead of a ghost.
And I hear you whisper: Sesame.
And the world unclasps in front of you.
2.
With the touch of your thoughts
spaces reveal themselves.
The length of your sight
smolders and moves the circulation
of untapped worlds.
You fly on the magical rug
and rise following the birds,
there where everything is transparent,
everything in one dimension,
like on a child's drawing,
but with something human,
deeper than the mankind.
There I await for your unsleeping
in my cosmic dream.
3.
I never told you
how much I love to tears
your shaggy head
that smells like soap and autumn wind
in the dusk.
Head, which inhabits
only tall colors,
colossal, unattainable,
capable to understand
the spirals of celestial fires,
geometry of dream
and the boldness of a new Icarus
who will march tomorrow
towards the unknown Suns
with such speed, compared to which,
the light is just clambering.
4.
My son, I fly too.
I move,
just like the bird without leaving
the imprint the wings in the air,
believing in that
what I would want to see,
and not in what I truly see.
Maybe that is what it means to enter
the insides of silenceness.
Maybe that is what it means to attain
what not everyone can:
life that doesn't choose us,
but we choose it.
5.
I have traveled my own most wondrous,
most beautiful journeys
through the desert
of this windy head.
There hold the infinities
of which, you don't even abode.
To be a traveler through wisdom,
means to: struggle with
perils of dementia.
Not to rush, but - tremble,
with dignified gentleness
of one beautiful fool.
6.
So I run from home.
You find me sitting
in the restaurant by the river,
struggling to peal
the gravity of boredom,
monotony of life
and dullness of rapture
off my forehead and my thoughts.
In weightless state
of wine and quiet music,
I unglue myself and fly.
I fly above myself.
That's how I imagine the sky.
7.
Then you come up to me and say:
dad, let us go home.
I leave the smile on the table
and ashtray chockfull
of small burned wings.
I open the door and enter.
Not in the world, but into myself.
And I stop drifting further,
but in myself I stay.
8.
They say: you still understand nothing
with your thirteen years of age.
Leaned on the wall of rain,
I suckle the acinus of air
and inside myself I smile.
I know a lot of parents,
completely barren from that
exceptional seriousness
with which one can become a son
to his own son.
Fear not. I revere you.
Here is my hand, lead me,
but carefully, so we don't frighten
the freckled eyes of leaves
in the puddles of October.
9.
And as we walk like that,
I would want to ask of you:
fly over the infinities,
surpass the time and imagination,
but never forget
how to walk on ground.
Touch with the crests of distant
binary stars with your hands,
let you throb synchronize
with explosion of pulsars,
but never forget
how to walk on ground.
The beginning of the beginning is everywhere.
The end of the end is inside of us.
10.
After the starry flights
it is good to have a place
where you can set down.
For human hearts are low,
planted like strawberries.
All right, let us go home,
where fire-bugs are comets
of our own little universe,
where we made for ourselves
millimeter infinities,
that are still cumbersome enough
for us to, with carelessness,
render from each other, forever,
and slide off
in our own directions.
Me, far away from you
like Alpha Centauri.
You, far away from me
like the Pleiades constellation.
11.
Find the new worlds
and weave their skies.
Bestow upon them the air
to live and breathe.
But never forget
how to walk on ground.
Only that way can we
come closer to each other.
Four streets there,
and three streets here,
and a barely noticeable smile,
and pure, heartfelt eyes,
that is the wideness of the abyss
that I would want to bridge
from my star to yours.
(translated by myself)